It’s been a long time since my last post. After the transfer from Blogspot to WordPress, I never updated my posts and links anymore. It’s a choice and a difficult decision to make.
As a mom, I have to give up blogging for a while. . We’re always together, everyday. And yet, I’ve neglected him. I feel so guilty about it. My husband and I am always facing the computer. I did not give him enough time and support for his learning process like crawling and walking. Until, he had fever and doesn’t want to eat. He vomit the food that we gave him. We rushed him to the hospital. We found out, he was sick from amoebas and pneumonia. That’s why his fever did not stop even if we gave him medicines.
How I wish, I can give him a clean environment. For my baby to crawl, play and walk around. But, this is an internet shop with only one room for us. Customers are bustling in and out while my little son is playing and sitting on the floor. I hate it but I have to accept it.
I tried to organize our time, but, it’s always a failure. When one of us, is so sleepy, the other one will do both – watch our baby and watch the internet shop. It’s really difficult! The internet shop owner, of course, will not allow us to hire a stay-in nanny. Besides, my husbands pay is not sufficient.
I’ve decided again to come back and find ways to earn a living online.